I have been having a really wonderful time working in the garden here in Hawaii.

Recently I harvested enough purple sweet potatoes to feed an army… for a month… the tomatoes are in abundance and Avocado keep appearing in my kitchen , gifts from friends and neighbors who have too much.

Yesterday it was Mother’s Day…

I was feeling a deep sense of peace and pleasure, we had a picnic by the ocean down at Whittington Beach Park, with many friends and no family.  My kids are scattered all over the world, they can’t be dropping their lives to come here in person to say Happy Mother’s Day!…

I felt blessed since I had heard them already… it was a good day, we played music, ate local food grown organically and cooked with love…

That evening, with the ‘almost’ full moon over head and Venus hanging big and bright in the eastern sky,  I drove up to the new property on Orchid and Seaview, where I’m currently building accommodation for the Mystery School here in Hawaii.

I sat in the stillness. It was around 4am, the sun just starting to light up the sky… the air  cool and sweet smelling, the birds awakening with the light and commencing their morning ritual of singing the sunrise into the consciousness of the world.

As I sat in the semi darkness, I became more and more filled with what felt like effervescence… soon finding myself with tears pouring down my face and the revelation that

I was experiencing pure joy!

No one ever really explains what joy actually is because it’s a feeling… and like a color… a feeling is experienced by each of us differently.

As far as I can tell, I was in complete joy, filled up and overflowing with the love of The Divine Mother of All Creation, the life force of the universe…

A few moments later I had a download… a living vision… a daydream at dawn… whatever you want to call it….

As clear as day, I saw a temple built for the Divine Mother and a garden all around growing food, in the front was a beautiful kitchen and we were making wonderful soup from all the food and feeding the poor of the district.

It came to me in a heart beat.  These exchanges with other dimensions are outside normal time and space…   and as a result, are always a little strange when they happen.

That’s why we have to learn to trust the unseen real… to know that we are not being overcome by a demonic force because we have suddenly lost control of every aspect of our experience. But rather in the ‘letting go’ we are ‘letting God’ show us how we can be most useful at the time.

So now I know my mission with that part of the land and the purpose for all the extra food we’re growing in the district… when I came back to real time I was so elated I floated home and fell asleep with a big smile on my face…

It is so wonderful to actually experience joy once again.
As we get older it’s easy to become afraid and get caught up in the mundane,  forgetting the joyful world of creativity open to us always. My teacher often said that “in every case, charity is for the giver not the receiver… never delude yourself!”

After thirty three years of life experience, since his class, I know he was right. I am very clear this vision was a gift and the instruction… an honor and a privilege.

There is no doubt — I want to create this for the joy and satisfaction the adventure will bring to me personally — the challenge it will provide my creative soul, and the pleasure I will get from helping others less fortunate, while gathering the community in acts of co-operation and self caring…

Why will I do it?
For the pleasure of my heart and soul and the experience of joy… the effervescent aspect of the God force that makes my eyes water and my heart sing.

Blazing tales of wonder,
remembering all we have ever been and are about to become.

Your sister through chaos and comfort,
Shankari the Alchemist
….in the garden of Eden, on the side of a volcano, at the end of the earth… playing the flute for the Queen of Heaven…

There is this great sign, it’s painted blue on wood, and rather long…

I bought it at the local Saturday Morning Markets… it states in bold print…

“hire a teenager while they still know everything”

I laughed out loud when I saw it the first time…
Thinking on it for a while… I can’t believe how ignorant and arrogant I was as a teenager.

How did my mother ever put up with me?

So did you think about it?
What was the best thing you learned from your mother?

Of course we all learn a great deal from both our parents, but mothers have a special place.

Why?

Because they’re the ones who provide our first nourishment, warmth and nurturing… for quite a long time they appear, to be our only source of sustenance… so it’s understandable that to a child, their Mother hold’s an almost ‘God like” position… Indeed… she always has the last word!

I have to thank my mother for teaching me how to be tenacious and never give up.
That’s the biggest lesson I learned from her about life. She didn’t cuddle us much, she was a woman of her times and fairly closed off… but she taught me by example to “keep on, keeping on”.

She didn’t leave my father despite their challenges and her loneliness, she didn’t abandon my brother when he became a junky… instead she let him live at home and put a dead bolt on her bedroom door and stored her valuables in there so he would not be tempted to pawn them for drugs.

She never threw away a piece of paper that had not been used on both sides and she grew a lot of her own food… she was a genuine new ager long before her time… she will always be my hero, I find myself more in awe of her everyday, as my body changes and I experience the fact that I am not thirty anymore… I have a mortal body that is healthy and strong but is not designed to last forever… I appreciate her more and more everyday.

She showed me by example to be honest, diligent and responsible. She was strong minded, yet willing to learn new things and explore new places. She never let anything stop her from doing what she wanted to do… right up until the day she left she made her own rules…

She was a character, a mystery to those she met and an inspiration to those she loved. My regret, is that I didn’t take the time, to get to know her better.

I am grateful with every breath, because I had the gift of her love, in the form most appropriate for me and my lessons on earth…

… get to know her past… her dreams… her plans for the future… she may surprise you!!

Remembering all we have ever been and are about to become… your sister through chaos and comfort
Hokulani
Big Island. Hawaii
May 2009

I worked for twenty years on healing my dysfunctional relationship with my father, only to discover I was a lot like him and my mother really did drive us both mad!

He stayed drunk and I went to live as far away as possible… forgiveness was what made our friendship possible.  Children are always in judgment on their parents… it’s part of the deal when becoming human.

They are our teachers and our guides… to become independent, we have to cut the umbilical chord or stay forever irresponsible and childish in our relationships and approach to life.

Our mothers are the portal through whom we enter the earth plane. It is through that original service that we have the chance to grow and become enlightened through the human experience.

Something to consider for a moment is that everything on earth was born from a female… a “mother”…. Oh… that’s right… except of course Eve!
The first woman!
Or was she?

The History Channel will tell you. This was one of those fabrications in service to the patriarchal culture we inherited. They wanted complete control… they did not want to share the hearts and minds of the populace with the female religions.

They had to discredit the priestesses and the philosophy of the fertility/ feminine religions… so they couldn’t admit the source was Feminine. That’s why they removed Lilith… Adam’s first wife!

Oh yes!
He was married twice —  And his first wife didn’t die, she was ‘banished from the garden’ (which she may have felt was a relief from the manipulation and control of being inside ‘the garden’…)

Adam is said to have complained to God that his woman (Lilith) would not behave… she would not “lay underneath him”.

So I guess right at the beginning they wrote “The Divine Mother of All Creation” out of the Bible and replaced her with “The Holy Spirit” (poor sexless thing) .

Later the Catholics entered Mary as a possible focus for Feminine worship… thank heavens for that! Now they have repositioned her because the energy of the Goddess is returning and they couldn’t afford to lose more of the congregation than they already have… life is so fascinating, don’t you think?

My own mother, was a hero.
She taught me many valuable lessons and a positive, philosophical outlook… she loved knowledge and freedom, she was a voyeur by nature and often went on solo adventures to India (after she was 60yrs old) so she could draw the snake charmers in the market place, she was a genuine ‘character’.

She did the impossible on a regular basis… but as children we hardly noticed.
Of course I was afraid of her disapproval and the idea of failing her was a nightmare that traveled with me every day,  perhaps even still!

I was hoping for her approval… I never felt I really received her approval, she was not effusive and was not someone to ‘beat around the bush’ as they say in Australia. She would always come straight to the point… she was fearless and determined…

When I first arrived in Bali the phone systems were very unreliable, consequently there would be long periods of time when we didn’t get to speak… because logistically it was impossible.

We were friends in the end. I loved to speak with her from foreign countries;  it was a ritual.
Upon arriving in a new hotel room somewhere in Europe or America, the first thing I would do, would be to call her. We would talk for an hour or two… because the hotel phone was sure to work!

I didn’t completely appreciate her while she was alive.

Appreciate your own mother while she is still here… she will not be around forever…
Love her right now, no matter what her crimes in your’ little black book of the unforgivable…

…  or you will find yourself in years to come… wishing you did!

More tomorrow…

Blazing tales of wonder, remembering all we have ever been or are about to become.
Your sister through chaos and comfort

Shankari The Alchemist

Hokulani
Big Island, Hawaii

As an outcome of my studies and adventures through “The Mysteries” I have discovered that we each choose our parents.

Not at a personality level, but at an energetic level… through your signature frequency…

Imagine if you were pure energy, an evolving soul with a certain frequency of Being,  waiting for an opportunity to incarnate into a situation that will provide you with the very best environment for your next level of evolution…

So there you are, a unique energetic frequency sending out the message that you are ready for your next adventure on earth… waiting for your next body.

You do not necessarily, immediately get a new body and associated budding personality… you have to wait for the right partnership to come together and create the perfect karmic environment for your unique needs.

Your parents came together in that fateful moment and you hear the call… these people by coming together and creating a baby are  providing exactly the perfect environment for your karmic lessons and opportunity for evolution…

They are setting you up so you will be available throughout your life to meet and serve those you owe and be served by those who have a debt to you or you are currently to create a debt with…

Life is all about balance… finding the balance…

So we are activated into our new incarnation by the energy produced at the moment of conception, since there is no matter, movement through time and space and between dimensions is in an instant…

It is for this reason that we are so interconnected with each other.

Soul family.
We often return again and again in different roles with each other so we can become compassionate and forgiving… understanding everything because we have had the opportunity to walk in the shoes at some other time and have evolved sufficiently to be of service to everyone we come across in our life.

I often meet people who feel they are not really the child but the parent in the relationship with their Mother. Perhaps they were in that role in a recent life… but in this life, cannot let go of feeling responsible.

There are an infinite number of variations on this theme. It’s only interesting — not life changing, because the most important life is now and the most important relationship is the one with yourself as it reflects back to you from those around you.

With this knowledge, know your parents were your choice.

There is no one to blame for anything… everyone is an innocent victim of everyone else and it’s time for us all to heal… right now!

There was no mistake… everything that happens to you until you are twelve is already in the signature of the frequency you chose to explore in this lifetime.

Let all your judgments go and bath in the waters of forgiveness…

Your mother was your portal to this world, she did her best, she was the innocent victim of her world, just as we were ourselves…

It’s up to each one of us to honor the universal energy of fertility… our own mothers… The Divine Mother… because without them we would not be here to share this story.

I love my mother.
I love the memories she left me with… of her eccentricities, her strength, her courage and her willingness to be unusual… to think outside the box and give us kids the right to do the same.

She is my hero and I am so grateful to her for the opportunity she gave me to be her friend, to share our stories and laugh together from one side of the planet to the other.
One of the last things I said to her was… “you should go soon, because I can see how frustrated you are with your failing physical body… and there is this thing called “Photoshop” that you would really love… but you will never get there from here… you need a new life!”

She was back very promptly, and at 6 years of age she is becoming a master of her digital world!

Nothing dies, everything is recycled… including our mothers!

Remembering all we have ever been and are about to become…
your sister through chaos and comfort

Shankari The Alchemist

Hokulani
Big Island. Hawaii
May 2009

Have you ever noticed that the energy and actions we take in our lives are constant metaphors for the larger world around us?

And in some way more clearly describes what’s going on inside us than our words can speak.

I am in Hawaii, it’s the last day of Spring and there’s ‘dead wood’ every where… on the ground, still connected to the mother trees, old stumps… there were dead cars all over the lot, happily it’s clear now… removed over the past month by a blessed man named Aaron, who is providing this service as a gift to the community… now its just dead wood… twigs, branches, logs, and piles of dead leaves…. everywhere…

I’m collecting it in bundles to throw into the volcanic crack in the earth nearby for compost… I am feeling wonderful.

It’s tedious work, I wear big thick gardening gloves so my hands are not ripped apart by the sharpness of the bark… and close my eyes as the leaves fall and the twigs stick in my hair. I have thick socks to prevent the bugs from feeding on my ankles and sunglasses to prevent eye damage from the dust and funk that’s falling from the trees as I clean them and myself of ‘dead wood’ and prepare for an abundant harmonious future.

I am feeling lighter and lighter as the sunlight pours into the garden… the orchids have already begun to flower.

The sense of death and abandonment is lifting from the environment with each bundle of dead wood. I am changing with each bundle…  my life, I am clearing out the ‘dead wood’… I feel it in every cell of my being.

I’ve concluded that everything in my life I can describe as ‘dead wood’ must become useful! It’s not a matter of abandoned or denial, but rather of integration, inclusion and the alchemization of all my resources into useful service to the earth … Useful, that is my quest, to find all the ‘dead wood’ zones in my whole life and alchemize them into resources.

Through breath, art, meditation and creativity all the answers are given in the stillness.

I have affirmed this over the past few days in the garden on the corner of Sea Breeze and Orchid.
I began this project thinking it would be hard to love because of the rubbish… piles and piles of rubbish, like a microcosm of the world…

Then I realized that everything is really useful if put in it’s rightful place… it’s not that I don’t have enough resources, its that I have to be creative, rearranging and reactivating the resources in a different way.

This applies to my physical resources and my spiritual resources. The old rotting stumps are not rubbish… they are perfect for growing orchids… and the twigs and tiny branches burn hot and clean in the barbecue … there is plenty of space to create a good compost heap and grow lots of food.

There is already an orange tree a beautiful pineapple and Chinese Gooseberry bushes laden with fruit. I have planted three mulberry trees, a coffee tree, a Loquat tree, gardenias, spring onions, parsley, spinach, and phenyl… oh yes and three fig trees and two Jacarandas… one either side of the driveway.

Today some friends helped and we built a bar b q out of local stone called po’hoi’hoi… beautiful word isn’t it… the Hawaiians have as many words to describe rocks as the Eskimos do snow! (About 25 words)

So in celebration of this moment of birth… the birth of my book “Doing it with the Divine… why be a beggar for love?” and the commencement of building here on the corner of Orchid and Sea Breeze in Ocean View Hawaii…

We are having a party on Friday evening the first day of Summer, Beltane, the 1st of May… and exactly 2 months later on the 1st of July, for those of you who would like to join me in Hawaii for a weekend.

I want to teach you, how to “Breathe with Power and Purpose”

I would like this to be an intimate event, where I can get to know you and support you in your personal quest for freedom and fulfillment on every level of your life.

For this reason, there are only 12 places available.

Class will run from 1pm – 8pm,
Saturday and Sunday July 1st and 2nd 2009.
Donation to the Mystery School is $295 for this 2 day event with Shankari, this includes accommodation and a main meal each day.

If you are interested please call Lily in Hawaii on 1 808 929 7564 from 10am -5pm Hawaii time or email her on lilyofhawaii@gmail.com

I wrote my first story when I was eight years old. It was about a flying dragon, it was seven pages long… no one else in my class had been so ambitious. It was in very big handwriting, simple thoughts, but what I received from the experience was a great sense of freedom and expansion.

Writing could take me anywhere I wanted to go on the inside.  The terrain was safe because I could do it by myself and did not need others to ‘come out and play’.

Writing meant I could be fully engaged in my own mystery world, safe and evolving away from the mainstream, which always seemed so ignorant and boisterous. You see, I am truly a hermit at heart!

I wrote my first book over a very long period, six years  and it’s still not really out there because it was very personal and biographical and there are parts of me that are not as resolved and forgiven as I would wish. Some part is dedicated to success and there are other parts  that are not, because they feel unworthy or wrong or weak and stupid.

Self forgiveness…there is no greater healing tool on earth.

I believe everyone is in a constant dialogue with themselves, trying to find their way through to happiness… fulfillment.

For a long time I felt I had no permission to write because everyone needed me more; the kids, the job, the company, the staff — everything and everyone came first because I had it hooked up that I had to help everyone else into their success before I could have time for my own!

In the end this leaves people resentful and I was on my way when I was stopped by these profound words…

“You are their role model, no matter how hard you try to help them be successful they will never know how to experience success until you show them what it looks like and you can’t do that from the back of the room.
You must walk to the front of the room and be seen for who you are!”

In that moment, I felt as if the scales had fallen from my eyes. Now I had permission to explore the way to my own success through writing; which is a very solitary pursuit. I would feel guilty for shutting everyone out in order to write.

These days I feel as if writing is one of the gifts of my life… that I have such a rich and fulfilling inner world that sustains me and allows me to share my wisdom and my joy with the greater world.

In the mean time, while I was busy putting my writing on hold so I could support my family into their success, they were just busy picking up on my deep resentment so no one was benefited by my martyrdom. Never do it, it’s such a waste of time;  the kids I love so much don’t really understand the details they just feel the energy and the energy was not balanced.

If you feel like writing… do it NOW!

As I write in my new book “Art as a Healing Force”,  I believe… and have a knowing born of experience, that Art, Music, Magic, Meditation and our Experience of God are all rolled into one great  field of energy.

Like a gemstone with many faces, each face represents a different access point to the same world of Divine Force — the energy that allows us to turn inward and fall in love with the God Force as it expresses through ourselves and each other.

From the outside, it may look like it is an access point to somewhere completely different… but once you have begun your exploration in earnest, you will discover as all the great artists always do… that they all lead to the same place — to a personal relationship with The God Force.

My work as an author and my work as a jewelry designer is one and the same. In both I am sharing my experience of Divine Force and in the process I am looking for ways to serve the community.

Ways to empower, educate and strengthen the individual;  to share beauty, creativity, strength. And through these qualities, open the heart chakra, releasing fear and doubt. making way for a new you, better informed, more connected to each other and to your Source.

Healthier and happier and of more genuine service to the world around you — that is what most of us truly desire. We are not really all greedy looking for lots of cash. What we want is the sense of security and worth that cash is supposed to provide us — the ‘safety net’, the ‘security blanket’.

Artists, writers… in fact anyone with true experience will tell you, those things are not actually available through the accumulation of money.  That is a lie perpetrated by those factions that want to keep us all in nice tidy boxes.

Thank God for the artists of the world, they just keep on keeping on.

I am proud to say I am one of these fringe dwellers, through my writing, my jewelry, my gardens, my drawings, my mosaics, my music and my meditation…

I want to help the world around me become more balanced and empowered, in love with the beauty of The God Force as it shines through us into the world and shines back to us from our actions in the world.

It’s never about what you ‘say’ you will do or can do.
It’s about what you are doing now… today!

My advice to everyone is find something you love to do and do it everyday… sing, dance, write, draw, design jewelry, become a blessing in your world and share your joy with others less fortunate.

I am writing “Doing it with the Divine…why be a beggar for love”, for everyone who loves freedom, great orgasms and self-sufficiency.

For the liberated men and women of today.

You’re my audience, the healthy, intelligent, informed man and woman who want to use what you’ve got to make a difference in your life, to your family and your world.

We have inherited a world that despite it’s faults is far more free and fluid than the one our parents and grandparents occupied.

It’s been a long time since Ed Sullivan was only allowed to have Elvis on his show on the condition the new ‘sex symbol’ was not filmed from the waist down… considering the satanic wave of promiscuity in women this was supposed to set off in society!

They never mentioned how Elvis might affect the men in the world audience who immediately wanted to emulate all of his qualities.
Why do you think you were never told all about this? Because it’s dangerous information.

It changes the picture socially and spiritually.

Many ancient religions teach that women cannot become enlightened. They must be in service to men so successfully that God allows them to come back in their next life as a man in order to get enlightened. Doesn’t that sound funky to you?

One of the missions Jesus had was to change that belief. He wanted to convince the world of two new ideas. Yes that’s right, only two new philosophical principles set Jesus apart from all his predecessors.

Two provocative new ideas… that were so seditious they got him killed and changed the future of the earth forever.

The first is Forgiveness. Very seditious idea when revenge was all they knew… a tooth for a tooth and an eye for an eye… Revenge was the accepted rule of law before Jesus!

The second is Equality. Yes, that’s the worst one!

The idea that before God all life is equal!

…No matter what color you are or sex you are or rank you hold in the world of man, all life is important and equal in the eyes of God.

This is what gave Jesus his edge… his seditious remarks regarding the equality of slaves and women and children in the eyes of god and that God is not fooled by a whole lot of pomp and circumstance… God does actually know what is going on behind the scenes.

Christianity is a religion that over time split into many different sects.  St Augustine, a terrible womanizer in his youth who could not control his sexual urges is responsible for the terrible attitude of the church toward women. As he became older Augustine regretted all his wildness and wrote prolifically and convincingly that women were put here to tempt men into sinful behavior.

The only way to protect yourself from sin as a man was to control the wanton ways of women by restricting their every movement, keeping them “barefoot and pregnant“ until their death from over-work!

It took the Christian world five hundred years to work through the accumulated effects of St Augustine’s guilt, sense of powerlessness and self loathing. Now we are socially expressing those profound words of Jesus …

“In the eyes of God you are all loved equally”…

This is not to say God wants everyone to be the same in order to please the Divine… we are not the same.

In fact we are all of us unique sparks from the Divine Fire.

We can be similar however each of us is on our own unique journey back to ‘the source of all life.’ We are expressions of the Divine Fire, each of us far more powerful and useful to the world when we are in touch with that essence within us that is closest to the Divine… Kundalini, the access point for communicating with the Divine that everyone in the world can find and use in service to the peace and prosperity of the earth and her people.

I trust you will enjoy the journey as I guide you in discovering new worlds of pleasure and Divine Connection that is literally available at your finger-tips!

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If I were in charge of the Education Departments in schools all over the world, I would make ‘breathing’ the very first thing I taught children from a very early age.

Just think about it for a moment, How long can you go without food? How long can you go without water? How long can you go without breathing?

So which one of these would you say was the most important?
Yet in our culture we are drowning in information of all sorts about food and water but nothing about breathing!
Breathing is a skill, it’s free and empowers the individual. Perhaps that’s why we never hear about it?

I am self taught, originally from books when I was 18 years old and still in high school. I found the ability to control my emotions through the use of my breath very liberating as you might imagine.

Unfortunately this level of self control and my inability to be intimidated by the headmistress (who had made me wait outside her office for forty five minutes… more than enough time to have practiced my square breathing techniques to control fear to the point of euphoria) I was considered to be “undermining the influence of the teaching staff” so I was expelled from school on those grounds.

Since understanding the power of breath from an early age and exploring many different ways it may be used to empower anything I choose to learn, execute or discover within myself and within the world around me. I am a student of the mysteries in all their forms and I believe there is perhaps nothing more mysterious than the power of the breath when used with absolute intent.

I have studied the connected breath (Rebirthing) that allows you to plug your emotions back into the past to discover the old beliefs held in your deep emotional memory. The ones that keep sabotaging you in the present.
I have learned the power of breath in relationship to martial arts, while studying Tai Chi.

Esoteric healing sound and choral singing are equally as dependant on my ability to control my breath.
Breathing is the essence when I practice yoga or any physical exercise system.
In fact I cannot think of a single thing in my life that has not benefited from my original understanding about the breath.
The deep powerful breath that travels compressed down the back of your throat, is now commonly called ‘The Wijaya Breath”.

When you breathe compressed air down the back of your throat you give yourself access to a much greater lung capacity. When you breathe down the front of your throat you take in small short breaths that do not allow you access to more oxygen for the brain.

I am a body alchemist as much as I am anything else and breath is the most powerful of all the tools in this discipline. The way we breathe influences the amount of oxygen in our blood which qualifies our ability to think and act with precision and purpose. When the blood becomes deoxygenated the body, in an effort to bring more oxygen to the brain responds with the condition known as ‘blood pressure’.

In fact to breathe with power from an early age is a gift beyond price. Let me know if you are interested in learning how to create a new experience of your life on every level by learning how to breathe with intent and purpose. Become your own healing agent, save money on medicine and prescription drugs… breathing is free!

Blazing tales of wonder,

Remembering all that we have ever been and are about to become.

Your sister in chaos and comfort.

Shankari the Alchemist

I am really excited about my art project in Hawaii.
I’ll be back there soon. I’m cooking up a great new idea that will include artists from all over the world. The art is to be created out of recycled materials, mostly found in garbage dumps and waste disposal.

I am planning to create a magical environment that allows all kinds of art to be expressed and all kinds of artists to co-create art together. In the area of Hawaii where I am located it appears at first glance to be almost unpopulated, poor and eccentric. However over the last eight years, my opinion has changed.

It’s a very unusual community.

There are people with great wealth, those with medium means, and those with hardly any means at all. It’s a true desert environment with very little water. We experience the trade winds when they blowing from our perches on the dormant side of the volcano with panoramic views of the south pacific ocean.

Within this community all these different types of people are friends.

The cooperate and support each other. There is no local hospital, police station or school. So only the strongest with the clearest intention to remain in a balance survive.

You may ask, Why would I move to such a challenging place? To fulfill my destiny. Indeed the light is most needed in the darkest places. I hope and pray that I will be supported creating a powerful beacon of light through art and magic on the South West Coast of the Big Island of Hawaii.

Blazing tales of wonder,
Remembering all we have ever been and are about to become.
Your sister through chaos and comfort.

Shankari the Alchemist.

The intent for change I expressed on New Years’ Eve seems to be bearing fruit already!
My intent is to change my patterns of my behavior so that I may expect something different (perhaps a miracle?) in my future, rather than rehashing the why’s ,how’s,and who’s of the past. I want to bypass all of the boring conversation and just get on with it!

Sooo…I accepted an invitation to awaken very early and travel to the other side of the island!

Why?

To perform the ceremony and invocation opening the New Year -Full Moon energy of the Ecstatic Dance Group (about 200 people  arrived for the opening-gasp!) Believe me when I say, this was breaking my patterns – I am nocturnal to the extreme. I usually perform ceremony at night, not mid-morning, after a 2 hour drive!

The outcome of meeting this challenge head-on and disciplining the voice of my indulged inner child that wanted to stay in bed because “I don’t do daytime ceremonies….I am useless in the daylight-why did I agree to such a challenging activity-I must be crazy!”
Ignoring those complaining voices in my head I made the journey with grace, supported by my two wonderful escorts Donny and Kirk from Crystal Expansion.com, who came to share our Christmas/New Year celebrations at the Mystery School in Hawaii, from San Francisco.

The Celebration  and Invocation were a great success at the Ecstatic Dance Venue by the ocean,surrounded by the scents and colors of the Hawaiian Spirit of Aloha (sharing our Ha- Breath), triggered something new inside my own soul.
I consciously felt a shift in my own energy and my destiny path became a little clearer and easier to comprehend.

Change creates Opportunity-it’s up to us to qualify the change and the opportunity in our life and act upon it in service to the Earth. From this new place of being we perceive in a new way. We are aligned in a new field of energy that consequently attracts new experience.

Yesterday upon our return from this unconventional date with Destiny, the evidence was immediate that things had changed for the better. There was along list of phone calls from people offering their support for the Mystery School. (I have often felt burdened and overwhelmed by the isolation of my role and my strong sense of duty and loyalty will never let me quit….so, suddenly people are offering to help!

The final wild,amazing moment of this day of change came just before midnight. A knock at the door is a rare thing out here on the Lava Desert at the end of the Universe….
It was my favorite musician, who struggles constantly with self-loathing, and that tragic pattern of today’s disenfranchised youth who live by the code of

“Poor Me…F@#k You.”

He had come to apologize…a very rare and amazing evolution…something I thought would never happen! Now we can play together again and open up to anew level of creative expression.

Change your personal patterns (what you put out there in the world that represents you) and be ready to deserve to be heard, you deserve to be supported, and you deserve to feel loved. Yes, yes, yes!!!

Blazing tales of wonder,

Remembering all that  we have ever been or are about to become,

Your Sister in chaos and comfort,

Shankari The Alchemist