So now back to my response to the question,

“What do you want God to say to you when you get to the Pearly Gates?”

My response to this question was ‘thank you’. 

I want God to show his appreciation for what I have done here on earth. Wow!

As I analyze this, I would have to say this indicates I am waiting to get to heaven to feel appreciated.
When I think about it I do feel that God has let me down a lot…

I believe I am in a partnership with a Divine Being that I can’t trust to be on my team.
But then again, God is supposed to be on everyone’s team, because he loves everyone equally.

It’s confusing…

Why do I want God to say ‘Thank You’?

Because I feel like I have been doing it ‘all on my own’ while ‘ he’ watched and found ways to make it harder…

Come to think of it that’s how all my relationships with men have been, I slaved away while they watched and occasionally made it harder…
Why did I create this reality?
“I do not deserve support…none of them ever said thank you so why should God?”

Where does that mentality come from?

Competition is so ingrained in our psyche that we are in competition with God… from lowly sinful servant to a competitor.
That’s the evolution of Western culture; the slaves of ancient days brought to the USA represent 12% of the population of America.
They are such a potent force,  they are now setting the standards in Fashion, Music, Pop Culture and Social Values — culminating in the country’s only hope for economic salvation in the hands of one of their number (…this of course is an illusion because Obama’s father was African from Africa and part of the intellectual elite).

From slave consciousness “pickin’ cotton for the massar!” to “The Fresh Prince of Bel-Air” that is the unconscious evolution of humanity’s personal relationship with God.

Now, we can’t go backward… 2000 years of begging forgiveness as lowly sinners did not stop sin on earth, in fact as the population has escalated so has the quality and quantity of sinful behaviors… take Enron as an example, waste — that’s the greatest of our sins against each other and the god force.

Waste is deeply entrenched in our culture. The other day I went to ”The Avocado Festival on the big Island of Hawaii. On arrival we were greeted by a man dressed as an avocado who was handing ‘free trash bags for your car” as he handed it to me I was shocked and astounded… they were plastic! Big heavy, slow to decompose plastic…
Lord, when will they thread all the pieces together and have some continuity to their efforts.
It’s time to solve the riddle of human inhumanity to each other in the name of God.

We are supposed to be changing the world for the better, but our God apparently is not.

When you are in relationship with a God that is perceived as critical, judgmental, autocratic, patriarchal and jealous of your attention then you will create partners in your life to treat you the way you believe God treats his Children.

I know this sounds outrageous but just think about it for a moment and check for yourself…

Write a list that describes the qualities of your idea of God then check them against the relationships you have in the third dimension not only those that end in intimacy… all of them.
How do we change the world for the better?

I personally would like to present the idea that we can change our relationship with each other if we begin by changing our relationship to God.
Somehow we have to reprogram our unconscious minds to see God as benevolent rather than judgmental, loving rather than critical, tender rather than ruthless, trustworthy rather than diabolical.

“What do you want God to say to you when you get to the Pearly Gates?”

The other evening I caught a few moments of “Inside the Actor’s Studio”  James Lipton asked his guest Kate Winslet the question, “What do you want to hear from God when you get to the Pearly Gates?” I can’t remember the answer Kate gave but I do remember thinking immediately it would not be what I would say.

Then I gave it a moments thought and without knowing it I answered the question for myself:

I would like to hear “thank you” when I get there!

Wow!

Double Wow!

I have been contemplating that outrageous response ever since. I was raised a good Christian girl in an average post war middle class Sydney suburb. I sang in the church choir and studied my Bible every day.

I tried to be a good daughter to my mother… I asked God regularly for forgiveness although it never really sat right with me… that I was an evil sinner committed to a life time of begging forgiveness for crimes I was unclear on except of course that one about being born in sin…

If I had stayed in that environment perhaps my response at the Pearly Gates would have been different, maybe less embarrassing or controversial.

However, I have traveled widely, studied seriously, worked and sung and danced and played with many, many people from different nationalities and cultures, different religious persuasions and different socioeconomic groups.

What do they have in common? A lust for life. Desire to grow, a need to be nurtured, a common dream of comfort, security and success in their work and their relationships. These are the common goals of everyone I have ever met and most likely every one you have ever met too!

In Bali there is a belief that God chooses people to work for him and these people are most often unwilling. This is not an uncommon theme in the Bible either. What did Saul of Tarsus do when God appeared in the form of an Angel and asked him to stop feeding his people to the Lions? Did he immediately say “Oh right, so you don’t want me to do that, then I won’t!”

No, instead he more or less said to God… “Are you crazy? I can’t do that!”

So God made him blind and said ‘think about it’ I’ll be back in three days to hear your answer… in three days Saul was sufficiently humbled and gave in and became Paul the great Lion of God… he was so successful in the end there was a period in 200AD. when there were more Paulines in Europe than there were Christians.

The Pauline Church still exists!

Paul wrote two thirds of the New Testament… they are the letters he wrote to the Christian Communities encouraging them to think in a new way about their life and future.

Anyway the point here is that he didn’t want the job but he was forced through the actions of “The God Force” to make a positive difference in the world.

In Bali there are many stories of holy men (I have personally known more than a few of them) who started out as the most notorious rabble rousers or the laziest drunken husbands caught up in gambling and adultery… suddenly one day out of no where they are alone and in their madness they are visited by God in the form of an Ancient Balinese Holy Man or saint or Priest of Legend and told they must get themselves together and begin their work as a healer, helping people rather than wasting themselves away — they most often object.

This is when they are overcome with ‘the spirit’ and realize they have no choice, it’s this new path of service or death! In this moment there is a grand surrender of the small ego and an awakening of higher consciousness.

In this new frequency they have clear access to the Akashic Records (all the information on a subject, past, present and future is held in the Akashic Records)

If you go through the history of all religions you will discover there are very few people who are born ready to be saints and healers, in service to their world.

This is an outcome of personal evolution and experience bringing each of us to our personal Armageddon. It is in the nature of death that there is a seed of life reborn…. As the old dies away there is room for the new.
(to be continued soon…)