During these past months I have been experiencing huge waves of grief, followed by new levels of awareness.

I am becoming more conscious of  in every way how much my parents love or lack of it created who I am today…

The universe abhors a void so every time something is removed or deemed ineffective or unworthy, something else of a higher frequency appears to replace it…

I had a vision the other night… it was 3am on my roof grid in the Balian Palace…
A vision of the universal polarity, between male and female…
A wild visual experience of expansion, contraction, enmeshment and liberation.

Vivid colors accompanied the images as I watched what seemed to be The Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine struggle through the erotic, outrageous dance of relationship… the journey to the bliss of integration…

I had a revelation of forgiveness.

How to free myself from the grinding process of humanization, forced upon me by my parents obvious (and some not so obvious) dysfunctions… Since I am not of this earth originally, I find the process of humanization daunting!

The integration process… a mystery…

Then I had a clear awakening.
It does not need to be a process of intellectual analysis… it can be a transpersonal experience beyond mind…
How to achieve this?

Ceremony and ritual…

Do it the way it has always been done… It’s worked for centuries…
Experience the marriage of the dark and the light, the male and the female…

Imbue the Ogoh – Ogoh with all the dysfunctional patterns of your parents…
Of yourself…
See them married and integrating in the ever Divine Ceremonial Dance of life death and rebirth…

Load them up with all the pain, frustration, rage, grief, disappointment, and resentment you can find inside you, then set the whole thing ablaze… on the river beach in the dark of night, at the perfect time for liberation!

This year in March leading up to the Equinox…
We are laying the groundwork for a new experience on Earth!
A new form of relationship that will clear the way for each of us to experience true love and devotion from a worthy partner….

If that is your ambition or your quest, I highly recommend this incredible event….

Nyepi 2010

Bali… a land of deep healing and infinite wisdom, ancient ceremonies support the evolution of modern mystics… Come and experience this for yourself…
You will not be disappointed!

Shankari the Alchemist is a master magician, trained in many traditions, she has worked with the priests of Bali for 22 years.

She has a deep understanding of the elemental powers and how to harness them in service to the healing and ‘enlightening’ of your Being.

Dance laugh and sing… long into the velvet night

Experience the integration of your child-self with your adult-self…

Be present for the marriage of ‘the dark and the light’
The integration of the positive and negative, the past and the future….

Within yourself and the greater cosmos…. Experience …Magic in action…

There is the extraordinary opportunity here… for 22 individuals… to learn and practice powerful magic for transformation…from a master teacher and practitioner of the arts.

Individuals who are willing to step forward and explore the mysterious terrain of personal alchemy….’The Alchemy of Enlightenment’ with Shankari, your humble servant in the dance….

All profit from this event will be used in the creation of the Sacred Dance Mystery School and Divine Mother Soup Kitchen, Big Island Hawaii…. Ah hui ho!

The intent for change I expressed on New Years’ Eve seems to be bearing fruit already!
My intent is to change my patterns of my behavior so that I may expect something different (perhaps a miracle?) in my future, rather than rehashing the why’s ,how’s,and who’s of the past. I want to bypass all of the boring conversation and just get on with it!

Sooo…I accepted an invitation to awaken very early and travel to the other side of the island!

Why?

To perform the ceremony and invocation opening the New Year -Full Moon energy of the Ecstatic Dance Group (about 200 people  arrived for the opening-gasp!) Believe me when I say, this was breaking my patterns – I am nocturnal to the extreme. I usually perform ceremony at night, not mid-morning, after a 2 hour drive!

The outcome of meeting this challenge head-on and disciplining the voice of my indulged inner child that wanted to stay in bed because “I don’t do daytime ceremonies….I am useless in the daylight-why did I agree to such a challenging activity-I must be crazy!”
Ignoring those complaining voices in my head I made the journey with grace, supported by my two wonderful escorts Donny and Kirk from Crystal Expansion.com, who came to share our Christmas/New Year celebrations at the Mystery School in Hawaii, from San Francisco.

The Celebration  and Invocation were a great success at the Ecstatic Dance Venue by the ocean,surrounded by the scents and colors of the Hawaiian Spirit of Aloha (sharing our Ha- Breath), triggered something new inside my own soul.
I consciously felt a shift in my own energy and my destiny path became a little clearer and easier to comprehend.

Change creates Opportunity-it’s up to us to qualify the change and the opportunity in our life and act upon it in service to the Earth. From this new place of being we perceive in a new way. We are aligned in a new field of energy that consequently attracts new experience.

Yesterday upon our return from this unconventional date with Destiny, the evidence was immediate that things had changed for the better. There was along list of phone calls from people offering their support for the Mystery School. (I have often felt burdened and overwhelmed by the isolation of my role and my strong sense of duty and loyalty will never let me quit….so, suddenly people are offering to help!

The final wild,amazing moment of this day of change came just before midnight. A knock at the door is a rare thing out here on the Lava Desert at the end of the Universe….
It was my favorite musician, who struggles constantly with self-loathing, and that tragic pattern of today’s disenfranchised youth who live by the code of

“Poor Me…F@#k You.”

He had come to apologize…a very rare and amazing evolution…something I thought would never happen! Now we can play together again and open up to anew level of creative expression.

Change your personal patterns (what you put out there in the world that represents you) and be ready to deserve to be heard, you deserve to be supported, and you deserve to feel loved. Yes, yes, yes!!!

Blazing tales of wonder,

Remembering all that  we have ever been or are about to become,

Your Sister in chaos and comfort,

Shankari The Alchemist